a transition period for me.
i dunno what will happen and that requires immense patience.
i m waiting for a final conclusion.
while doing that i was listening to michael buble
-everything
-home
-mrs.jones
-save the last dance for me
norah jones
-sunrise
-come away with me
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the whole album
counting crows- big yellow cab
daniel beding field- gonna get thru this
kishore kumar
bryan adams
why am i boring u with these inane details bcoz prolly u get bored by everything else also and i didnt want to go too long without writing and well
i have
nothing to write about.
in a metaphysical limbo..................... cant do anything becoz i dont know where i'll be in a week from now. very difficult being cheerfull at a time like this. more like being on death row.
but atleast then i'd know if nothing else i'll die.
conversely if nothing else i'll continue living now.............. hmm........ not living existing till i find a purpose then i'll thrive.
i joked today............... i have all the tools and the advice to tackle life. it only has to start. i ve done the jumping................ ive done my part and am approaching it. does it catch me or will it let me crash and burn???
well well i did need to write after all........ confused, yet know exactly what i want, aimless yet can see my goal clearly.... ambivalent ...... thats what my life is now ambivalent......... wishy washy.........neither here nor there...........squiggly............crossroads with billions of crisscrossing paths.
if this is what builds character................... i'd like to be character-
less thank u very much!
will it be too dramatic to shout out "
why god why??" or maybe even a
"hello! god remember me??"
transitions.......... transitionary phase........ movement........... well i m motion sick!
over and out!
